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The first part of this month started pretty normal. I had my last physical therapy appointment for my foot, and am starting massage for my lower back. I was able to babysit Chase once. Our family decided to skip the Mizzou Homecoming parade for the first time. We just had a lot going on and it was cold. Instead, I did hot yoga with our club volleyball team. I made it through, but it was MISERABLY hot! It was 99.7 degrees in the room! Mom and I went to the MU volleyball game after and it was great to watch them play. Maci held our introductory MO Juniors volleyball zoom.
I took the PSAT at school. Districts started this month too! My goal was to get out of the first round, which we did! We played against Smith Cotton at Helias and won 3-0! Mom took Deyton while dad was giving the ACT. Papa Ron and Linda were able to make it. We played the second round of districts against Blue Springs South and lost 0-3. I got an awesome surprise that I was named Second Team All-Districts!
The youth at Church were able to plan a service and I did the first part of the sermon. It's something that I had in my mind for a long time and loved planning and delivering it. I spoke about how life is like a roller coaster and you never know when the dips are going to come. I was really proud of myself, and Elizabeth and Katie who spoke after me. Our Church hosted a trunk or treat and chili cook off. I have been so busy that I chose to do nothing on Halloween.
Against my will, I got my flu shot with Emily at Hy-Vee. Grandma Kathy came to stay with us while Mom and Dad went to their conference. I was allowed to go to Deyton's house the first night and enjoyed hanging out with him and his dog.
There are really no words for what happened next. Deyton chose to take his life on Tuesday, November 4th. He had visited me that night and seemed fine. He got in trouble and was messaging me through a computer and I just knew something was wrong. I called his dad and 911 and just prayed with Grandma Kathy. Hours later, we got the message that he was gone.
I went through every emotion multiple times in the next few hours. I just didn't want to believe it. There was no way he was gone. I was able to have an emergency appointment with Amy, and had a doctor's appointment the next day to give me medicine to help stay calm. I actually went to school the next day with Mom and Dad and stayed in the counselor's office for half the day. There were so many people who came to hug me and support me. He was loved by so many people. I was really worried that Deyton's dad would be mad at me, but he and his girlfriend Heidi actually came to see me after they left the hospital. They told us that because I acted so quickly, they were able to save all of his organs for donation. They were so loving and grateful.
I went to school the rest of the week but didn't attend all my classes. It's just so hard to concentrate. I have had so many visitors-Coach Sammi and Coach Peyton, my entire Columbia club volleyball team, Jill and Ale, and so many more. Everyone is bringing me gifts and it is like a sad Christmas. I skipped first week of club practice because I just couldn't do it. Our school allowed us to have a candlelight vigil, held on the baseball field to honor him and I was able to speak. I was so worried I wouldn't be able to do it, but I just felt his presence there. I felt at peace that night.
I've been trying to get back to normal. I saw Dr. Bohon for my lower back pain. I had an X-ray that showed no fracture. I am going to get an MRI and then do physical therapy. I was also invited to attend a speech and debate interest meeting and I decided to go. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through.
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